Possessed...

[Julia Lilith Potter]

…
Ah…it’s so odd to see how people look at you…
Straight in the eye… like they’re suspecting you of something…
Like they’re trying to guess your past… That’s why you turn your gaze somewhere else, somehow afraid of them…

I think … I now realise the wind blows stronger when you’re alone…
…And it blows even stronger when you know you’ll be alone for a long period of time from now on…
…But in most cases, it’s better to be alone and self-confident than with someone else and always fighting betrayal…
“Oh, really?”
“At least, that’s what I think…”
Luke took a good look around…
The subway was way too noisy for someone to hear him talk to himself…
“Renfrew…Renfrew, where are you?” he whispered, glimpsing at a couple of subway trains which were about to leave…
He put his hands in his pockets…He again felt the wrapping of the received package, hearing it rustle…
But suddenly, he stopped stroking it, having the feeling that he’s being watched…
“Another coward admiring me…” he said in a heart beat.
“…Luke?!”
He looked backwards…
“Ah…Alex…
I forgot you live in Renfrew, too…”
Luke fleered back at Alex’s humming…
“…Imagine… I can hardly remember the fact that we used to be neighbours… even…friends…
Remember those days?...”
Luke stopped his monologue for a while just to gaze at Alex…
He seemed to be losing himself within his own mind… Luke felt this fact by the way he held his mouth open…
“How…why…when?...” Alex barely babbled.
“Now, don’t be surprised nor scared… but I’d rather you didn’t tell Alicia a thing about our little encounter…
Well… if you really want to tell her everything, then I can’t stop you at all…
If you want to hurt her deeply…then go ahead… I won’t even try to stop you…”
“You…you…”
Alex felt like he was choking on purpose… but he kept his eyes fixed on Luke’s cheerful and lively silhouette…
“You…devil…”
“What…?”
Luke was interrupted by another voice…
…Train 334 to Renfrew is about to leave the station…
“I’d love to stay and chat, Alex, believe me… but I really have to go…
I think you can live without me torturing you…”
Luke gloated over him one last time…
And left him there, still watching him through the windows of the subway train…
…Watching him being purely shocked, not even able to make a phone call…
“Perfect…just perfect…”

…Is this the image I was willing to create ?...
Is this the fake Luke I wanted to use to protect my true self?...
A heartless creature…an evil being…
As Alex said… a pure devil…
Is this what I truly wanted to hear from him? Am I fully satisfied?...
I can’t tell… I can’t tell…
I can’t even think properly in a while…
Is this a crisis I’m barely getting through or is it just the deceitful harmony that immediately follows a decisive battle?...

[oh, absenta indelungaaata ^_^ oare mai citeste cineva pe-aici? ]